Springing the Trap

trap ---- snare ---- shut

i fall into it repeatedly
...helplessly

addicted is what i am

to the pain
of admiring from a far
to the torture of bearing it alone

so i walk into the trap once more

into the pit where vipers hiss and snarl
sip from the tainted cup,
poisoned drunkenly
to the bottomless abyss to which no end to this fall may come

so I fall, again. deeper, darker.
blacker than a moonless night

and know once more
that i fell into this by choice

of one's own volition

lacking prowess to step away from your danger




you have disarmed me, unequivocally